Happiness

"Happiness is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it
The more it will elude you.
But if you turn your attention to other things,
It will come and sit softly on your shoulder."
-Henry David Thoreau

It doesn't take much to make me happy

All it takes is good company and a little salmon. :)

That said, had awesome sashimi yesterday at tamp 1 with janet. Accompanied her to get her nails done before that too. It's great that she made the time to meet me bro 43 she leaves for indo. Thankful!

All the best this weekend and overseas! Take care of yourself okay?

On the downside, I had asthma attack on Wednesday. Was sent by ambulance to hospital. Pretty sudden and frightening. All is well now though.

In other news, field camp was pretty shag. Actually really really tiring. Had some fun and I'm glad it's over. Had some awesome views of nature and it's beauty.

Pre - field camp indulgence

Crab.

Had my fix of crab before field camp starts. :)

Met with janet after work to have dinner at simei. Again epic pillion skills. Shag tho. Especially after the meal. But so worth it for the krabby.

If you're reading this, Thanks so much for the meal yo! I might not be able to meet you for the next couple of weeks but I'll still be contactable if you need anything. Take care of yourself and thanks for everything!

Quack!

It's okay. Just keep smiling. :)

Sigh I want my own smartie.

Sian

Past few days resting and recuperating and I'm still sick. Back to work tomorrow and duty the day after.

Sigh. Like anyone gives a shit.

I don't want to be alone anymore.

Sian

Past few days resting and recuperating and I'm still sick. Back to work tomorrow and duty the day after.

Sigh. Like anyone gives a shit.

I don't want to be alone anymore.

Sian

Past few days resting and recuperating and I'm still sick. Back to work tomorrow and duty the day after.

Sigh. Like anyone gives a shit.

I don't want to be alone anymore.

Lonely weekend

Don't you love it when people change plans and don't inform you? I don't. Left the house then realised no point meeting. Decided to go home and do nothing rather than travel all the way to Dover to do nothing, just to travel back home again.

Stayed home, played some computer games, built some models. Just my models and me. Oh there's duckie too!

Was actually not that bad until I realised I was sick. Started feeling miserable. Fever, body ache, headache, sore throat. Don't know what's going on.

Just feeling like shit now. Watching chick flicks on TV now. Always about guys getting the girl of his dreams in the end, vice versa. Sigh. If only life was like that. :(

Maybe I'm just being selfish. Maybe you had a bad day, maybe you had a lot on your mind. Maybe a lot of things.

I'm too selfish. Maybe. I'm a bad son, a bad friend and a bad person. Maybe I don't deserve anything.
Since no one will say it, good night Dexter.

I give up

Well it doesn't matter to anyone that I wasn't home, I was tired like fuck, and I wasn't happy? Apparently so. Might as well just stay in and fuck everyone and everything right?

I come home tired and shit not expecting you to open the door for me and stuff. Yet you all still fall below my expectations. You just sit there. Both of you. Doing whatever fuck you were doing. Didn't even bother turning your head towards me. Didn't mutter anything. Not a simple hello. Yet when you had to move your leg and your items to make way for me and my bike, you were grumpy. Sorry I'm a hindrance. Sorry for coming home. Not a hello, not a good night.

I wanted to share what happened in camp the past few days, listen to what's going on at home. Just spend some time with you guys since I'm staying in tomorrow night as well. Well I couldn't even get a simple hello. Except my mum. But still fuck you guys.

Like I said. I might as well just stay in then. Fuck everyone. It may even make you miss me more. I'll spend less money and effort too. More sleep as well.

Fml. I shouldn't even care anymore.